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Time:03:14 pm

Ok, Here's the deal... Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as I Am __% Virgin. Lowest number u have the more you've done! after you are done tag 6 random friends so they can take this quiz!

1. Smoked.
2. Drank alcohol.
3. Cried when someone died.
4. Been drunk.
5. Had sex.
6. Been to a concert.
7. gotten/given a hj.
8. gotten/given a bj.
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 91%


11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 83%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done serious drugs.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 74%

31. Played strip poker/darts.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
40. Been in love.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 69%

41. Made Out.
42. Laughed so hard you cried..
43. Cried yourself to sleep..
44. Laughed yourself to sleep
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die..
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 59%

51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 53%

61. Avoided somebody..
62. Been stalked..
63. Stalked someone..
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument..
66. Ridden a horse..
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped..
69. Ding dong ditched somebody..
70. Been to a wild party
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 48%

71. Got caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls..
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush..
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat..
78. Been to another country..
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 44%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day..
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 35%

91. Been mistaken for a teacher.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain
97. Been rejected.
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face
100. Been raped.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 30%

Total: 37%

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Time:10:17 pm
vague sounds of rain
pierces through my song again
but I get distracted by the way his toes move when he plays
so i'll let it burn

I just poured my heart out
there's bits of it on the floor
so i'll take what's left of it and rinse it under cold water
and call him back for more

I said baby
I feel stupid to call you but i'm lonely
and I thought maybe you didn't mean it when you said you couldn't love me
and i thought maybe if i kissed the way you do
you'd feel it too

he said i'm sorry
so sorry,
I'm sorry, I am sorry

he grabs my wrists
as my fingers turn into angry fists
and i whisper why can't you love me i'll change for you
i'll play the part

and i say baby i feel stupid to call you but i'm lonely
i dont think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
and i thought maybe if i kissed the way you do
you'd feel it too

he said i'm sorry
so sorry,
I'm sorry, I am sorry


I found new guys, new crushes and I'm excited, but i'm still a sucka for some punches
it hurts but i need to let it pass,
i just miss and i'm lonely,
but i have beautiful people around me that say wonderful things and make me feel sane again
i know i just miss the feelings and not the people... so i just need to let it pass

i've been doing a lifetime supply of yoga, and i'm sooo iron deficient and it's fine
my mom gave me sooo much candy for my birthday
MESSYYY
i'm going to be such a fat kid ><
well.. I NEED TO STUDY 
pce
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Time:09:24 pm
owowowowowowowowow
ouch!
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Time:12:22 am
I gathered you here to say my last piece
a few final words before I am deceased
don't change your plans
this won't take long

I packed it up nice into this little song

if i could have your attention observe this fuse
it leads to these explosives that I'm about to use
before you freak out
let me explain
this bomb is the answer to all of my pain

if theres one thing I've learned
its that we never feel the heat
until we get burned

but we try so hard not to die
sometimes we forget to appreciate life

when the spark reaches powder
I will blow up
i'll become the myst you breathe into your lungs

all of my love will then turn into yours and you will feel hope bleeding out from your pores


if theres one thing I've learned
its that we never feel the heat
until we get burned

but we try so hard not to die
sometimes we forget to appreciate life

dad you were there when nobody was
i've followed your lead now i'm proud of what i've become

Mom I wish that you would try a little harder
maybe catch a show or two would that be such a bother

to all of my friends where do I start
I know i'd be dead without you in my heart


if there's one thing i've learned
it's that we never feel the heat until we get burned

but we try so hard not to die
that sometimes we forgot to appreciate life
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Time:08:47 pm
man i just saw something
i'm glad that you are here
 i got to start to thinking and seeing things so clear
how could i forgot what he left
what happened in november is what i needed
and i'm sorry that it shows
but life ain't so bad you know
and now the skies that you sweep through
you made this come true
my heart feels so new

makes me wish i had drama in my life so i could relate ><

oh mama don't walk away
i'm a goddamn sore loser
i ain't too proud to say
and i'm still thinking about you,
and i'm so lonesome without you
and i can't get you out of my mind

Oh mama dont leave me alone
when my soul shut down so tight just like a stone cold tomb
ain't it clear when i'm near you i'm just dieing to hear you calling my name one more time

oh so dont pay no mind
to my watering eyes
must be something in the air that i'm breathing
yes and try to ignore this blood on the floor
this heart on my sleeve must be bleeding

oh mama
dont walk away
you leave me here a reeling from the words so hard and plain
saying the love the we had was just selfish and sad
to see you now with him is just making mad
oh so kiss them again
just to prove to me that you can
i will stand here and burn in my skin
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Time:09:00 pm
sometimes i get caught up in the idea that i can be happy with you
and that i secretly really like you
then i give my head a shake
get my shit together
and remember i'm moving on
and that your a big douche
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Time:10:22 pm
agh it has been approximately 3 weeks
i decided that we were no good for eachother and that any association was making our lives worse
so i decided to stop
aaannnddd ggaaawwwwddddd
i miss him
dunno why
hate his guts half the time,
the other half of the time...

anyways it needs to happen..
like losing weight, or quitting a drug

but it's not eeeasssyyyyyy
:(
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Time:11:09 pm
Help me help me help
i wanna hear you scream love me roughly

lawl is it wrong that i love chris brown
and moksha yoga


today...

alex was betrayed... i feel like i was a part of it... like i made her have hope that it could manage to end well
it was rought, i'm not going to lie if i could go back i wouldn't have done that agian

but she gave it a try,
1 the guy she did it with was way more of a jerk than mine
2 alex isn't as cold as i am
to be honest if it was me i don't think i would've been as hurt
i wanted that
I STILL WANT HIM TO DO THAT... why did i have to be the one

and i saw how deeply this hurt alex
which makes me feel pretty sick

it'll never mean anything but i don't want to see him get hurt
i really hope i was right about the distance and that i didn't betray him like jordan did to alex
i wasn't even thinking of him... 
i just want to be over him every day more and more...
it's pretty hard to explain
and watching alex get so hurt makes me wonder if i even have that kind of attachment
whether that would've hurt me
Im so hurtful about becoming attached...

I'm not interested... not buying not selling 
just leaving myself open to life not hurting or being hurt
i'm tired of playing and being played
games are getting old
and everyone plays them
it's hard to escape from
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Subject:Today
Time:11:44 pm
It's too easy to try and be in love,  I think i'm going to try living.
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Subject:july
Time:11:41 pm
today is a day i'm not in the mood for...
I miss my friends, i miss danielle and steph (because i love them) and mack and kyle (when they were my friends)

Agh as far as relationships go so far,

i'm definitely not in the mood to tie myself down, i'm not passionate about anything so far in my life, so how can i risk being passionate about one person, i'll jsut build my life around them and i'll resent myself
 
i seriously just want to be friends with a guy, then get the hots for him like the old days

i don't want to commit to someone i just want to connect.
like all the fooling that comes with a relationship is pretty personal stuffs to me.
i've been spending a lot of time this week wondering where all the excitement i used to feel has gone...
in a lot of things...
pff i just got a lot of excitement steze being drowned by fear,


.im afraid to let go,
trying new things,
relapsing,
being hurt

i mean. maybe i just need to spend sometime not being asked for my phone number so that i can appreciate being lonely like that again,

i mean there was like a two day gap wtf
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